Before I thought, love is the color of gray, the colour of happiness is white, I and soft life is gray, not rich color, drab like a lime wall. Afterwards, I just know, only the monotony of lime wall to draw the most gorgeous vivid most pure eternal color.
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That summer, I and soft graduated from college, we about frightfully returned to her hometown, stay this busy cities.
Downtown rent surprisingly high, we in the outskirts are rented a 30 square meters of cabin, use in two days' time to clean the room, repaint the wall, from the flea market buy back off paint of wood, desk and sofa. We left Noah, to put this right of Noah, three things placed neatly, left the location of a table. I and soft prone on bed a a counting all of the money, MaDeYong little book write down our expenses and budget, discovery has no extra money to buy the table. I get a brainwave, use outside the hallway cardboard boxes piled up on a table, then spread a blue grid tablecloth. Looking at this initial scale "home," soft said to me, little blue, three years of time, I must let you live in two rooms one hall houses. I looked at MaDeXiao, I say, whether two rooms one hall or no room didn't, I will be the same hall follow you.
Learning program development soft lucky, a week later to find a job. Although probation only 600 pieces of wages, but that day soft back when I bought a bunch of 20 dollars rose. All those days I wear suits, short skirts and high heels in the recruitment of meeting ran, and I also a bachelor degree is numberless as the sand, study history of I couldn't find the right job, unit of choose and employ persons the harsh conditions and a small salary makes me feel great injustice. A company's principal with contemptuous look me, "he said." do you think you one of history can give us the company create value?
That afternoon come back, I in hot weather squeezed in a person who touches the bus straight think tear, I call soft, I asked soft, do you love me? He hear my voice wrong, he was scared, and asked me what the matter was. I said nothing, I couldn't find a job, you still love me? Soft in telephone that began laughing, small blue, find a job will not find, I support you forever. Although I and soft all know a month 600 pieces of wages in this city to remove the rent hydropower is running out, but I still to soft of this sentence moved for a long time.
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Soft is a good-natured men, I took so much care. I can't cook, soft everyday after work is riding a bicycle to the markets buy vegetables, markets no parking places, he wheeled car in the bustling crowd shoving. When she got home very late, he is very sorry to kiss my forehead, small blue, hungry, and waited, and at once. Then he busy at the door of the hallway with landlord leave that one stained with old oil dirties the gas burner cooking. Sometimes by the end of the month, money is not enough, soft every day do potato stewed turnip or turnip, potatoes. The more I eat with relish, soft more guilty.
Always proud of my job search sought for a long time, until October of cold wind blow, I was on the outskirts of the town high school as a history teacher.
Life than previously comfortable many, but, two personal wages added up to less than 2,000, and soft will save a part of the money to buy a house. Sometimes, I a person sitting in dim small house, suddenly feel me and soft future is so unreachable. Soft once said, let me live into three years two rooms one hall houses, however, this is just a unfulfilled promises. When I was in winter was bone-chilling cold hands bubble in the water to wash clothes, I feel that we can't afford a nt $2,000 on washing machine, not to mention thousands or even hundreds of thousands of house? So I believe that the only people in love said the silly get bubbling lover-like speeches. Whispers in without a strong material loudly on the basis of bitterness, always let a person.
Throughout the winter, soft, sometimes even busier d.the whole SuDe in the company to work overtime do procedure, the I a person throw in a small house. I humped over unheated house warming over the handbag wu cold and over hot-exchange water, and covered with two quilts or systemic shivered from the cold. In her hometown of mother call to ask: what are you doing? I said I and soft are lights in the big fish eat the paste hot yunnan garden hot pot! Hung up after, I would pick warm handbags crying. Tear drops wet quilt, my heart little sinking.
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Occasionally, god always like to test. Soft cannot give me buy expensive diamond ring, LinZiJun can; Soft cannot give me a house, LinZiJun can; Soft can't let me live a steadfast safe life, LinZiJun can. So, god would testing me, therefore, I met LinZiJun.
LinZiJun was a company shoulde steps without other alternative options, of course. That day I blind stroll in the street, transparent on the window watching over a blue dress long dust coat. Go back when I stand instability, pour a while parked in the street of audi car, backpack of metal buckles in vehicle body to draw the a long on her cheek. In my exclaimed, LinZiJun from behind patted my shoulder, he has looked outline, complexion is white. He secretly said, miss, I didn't see anything, you run, ere you owner back is bad. I watched him, not run. I said, well, or wait for the owner it, I'm unlucky. He smiled to get up, you unlucky? I am more unlucky? For no apparent reason, be blown flower cars. However, see at you don't run's sake, I forgive you. I shrugged his shoulders, originally you be owner, sorry, that I may go? He said, no, please, I eat meal can walk. I in his presence pockets, and I said I just pretend SanShiWuKuai zero eight wools money? You say can eat? He smiled, that always can eat kebab?
That afternoon, LinZiJun open audi drove me to eat five hair a string of kebabs. I sat in the car, remind of soft, the in the mind mixed emotions.Christian Louboutin Flats
So I understand the LinZiJun. He and soft like two trees, a plant opened full tree flower, vaguely profusion, sakurai 4 excessive, A tree full of fruit tree knot, let a person drool. Women will always in practical and romance between around wandering, vacillating. Pick the fruit it, which can solve the hunger, but no romance; Pick the flower, can satisfy little woman emotional appeal, the but again thirsty bear hard.
But, my heart clearly know that my love is soft. But LinZiJun filled with childish, small blue, we know so coincidence, miss point we are strangers, I will take it. I had to chase the eyes in his haste dodge.
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Winter passed very quickly, sunshine in March weather according to be warm in my body, let I have a free of trance.
Soft companies were sent to Shanghai to do project, to more than a month. He in early spring morning embrace me, there were covered in the hands of frostbite patches of sparkle redness and swelling. He gently stroking my hair said little blue, I will strive to make you to be happy, a month will soon be over, darling until I come back. I looked at him, I ask, soft, do you love me? Soft don't talk, gently nodded.
Soft walked, me sitting without the sun is still cold house, think 30 square meters of the house became more and more empty.
LinZiJun know soft business, always early in the morning at the door the horn, send me to work. He knows I like to eat spicy, descended a class to take me to eat sichuan-style chafing dish, spicy crab or tastes shrimp, often took me to ride in the cold wind blow the river embankment take off your coat to fit me. I have to LinZiJun emphasize, soft very loved me, so have I loved him. LinZiJun smile, I love you very much, in the future you will fall in love with me. Such a stubborn man, let my heart become complicated and miserable.
Soft occasionally call me, tell me he wanted to me. Every time his calls, my tears will fall. I know I and soft love around the precipice, a step back, is born, before further, is dead. I don't know what I should do, I just think, god, hello cruel.Christian Louboutin Pumps
One night, world of warcraft power leveling, I was awakened from the dream, struggled up find a 6.35-carat painkillers ate, but it got worse. I leishuilanlan to dial the soft cell phones, there said, the telephone you user is power off. Thought for a minute, I dialed LinZiJun calls.
That night, I was in a coma for. I only vaguely remember LinZiJun embrace me to get on the car, he put my head on his legs, side call my name, side open car rushed to hospital. At the hospital his embrace me running up and down, I hear many people's footsteps, like soft mend that zhang old desk voice, ding-ding boom, a mixed and disorderly.
Wake up in the morning, when it is LinZiJun red eyes carry a bowl of soup stood before bed, tell me last night to do the surgery, the appendix has excised, it's ok. I cry, cry rivers, the tears in the sheet open a flower and a gray floret, like me and soft love, blossoms, because no plenty of sunshine and moisture, flowers faded.
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Soft calls, and he did not know that I was in the hospital. He said little blue, darling, still remain ErShiSanTian I can meet you. I say.
The hospital, LinZiJun coming to pick me up. He took out a medal for beautiful diamond ring, he said, marry to me, little blue. I'll make you a lifetime all happiness. I hesitated, LinZiJun pull my left hand, will that ring wear in my ring finger.
Soft remain in Shanghai, and I packed simple baggage moved house, on the desk left a long letter. The letter I said, my dear soft, I know you to be able to let me to live a good life around busyness, I also know you love me. However, a woman want is just a soft warm winter night, sick one and can depend on arms and a zheyu wind home. I walked, I hope you will excuse me, I also hope you can happiness.Christian Louboutin
Writes my hands are shaking, I don't know how to use words, to soothe a man's pain, to explain a woman's leave. I think, we who are not wrong, love, in reality in front is so pale.
That night I moved into LinZiJun decoration luxurious house, he said a few days took me to meet his parents. I a person in the room into the side of a warm bed, but just couldn't sleep. That night, I've always dreamt of nightmare constantly, soft dreaming he in bustling market buying vegetables, dreamed that he has been covered chilblain hand knock in front of a computer keyboard, dreamed that he said, small blue, why do you want to go? My bad for you?
I think god is punish me, first he threw a choice for me, but I chose the wrong answer, so he punished me. In I haven't enough time and LinZiJun to see him in hospital for parents, but not comfortable routine check, they know they have the obstacle of anemia.
I suddenly found, the doctor said to do bone marrow puncture, doing further confirmed. I didn't listen to, ran out from the hospital, a person walks in the dense crowd, heart, suddenly cold to freezing point.
Don't know how I go, I am when I am with LinZiJun said I had the obstacle anemia, his face turned pale, he is like an ant on a hot pan as indoors shuttled to walk, keep saying, how to do? Do? I upset to sit on the ground without a thought.
Two days later, LinZiJun parents suddenly came, LinZiJun walk behind them recumbent, without a bygone laughing joyfully. His parents to my earnest, persuasive voice, I understand that it could not be a Lin Lin's seriously ill daughter-in-law, also impossible to give high medical treatment to expend even become bankrupt for my cure illnesses. I was laughing, props up two days without eating body, eyes staring straight LinZiJun. Standing in the parents behind and he is no longer the brave man, he is low head, dare not look me in the eye. I take off the ring, gently on tea table, then drape jacket, mentions the early pack good baggage out the door.
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No place, and I went back to the little room. The letter is still not open on the table, I calculated to calculate days, soft will come back the day after, I took the letter, threw it into the fire.
Soft come back, I have five days without normal meal. I lay in bed, without any effort. The strong big man incredibly cry, he clutched I said, small blue. What's happening? How to become so thin? I also cried, throat a faint voice, I said soft, you still love me? I have not worth you love. Soft dry lips kiss me, he said, small blue, I love you, whether you become what appearance, I love you. I said I would not live long, I got the obstacle anemia, anytime faint, this is god to give my punishment. Soft don't believe ground to looking at me, like to look into my intestines. I chuckled, men are all the same, so it is LinZiJun stare.
Soft walked, bustled out the door. I turn the body huddled, always indented woli, no tears.
After half an hour, soft came back. He carrying fresh vegetables and meat, still have a fat chicken, he same as ever said to me, little blue, hungry, and waited, and at once. It was getting dark, the room light becomes good dark, I lie on the bed have been looking at him pick dish wash dish to cut vegetables of figure, looking at him secretly with sleeves dry my eyes and looked at him give me stewed chicken soup do green pepper fry meat and sweet and sour vegetables. See later, surge tears blur my eyes, glance, look like a long time to stand still, my heart suddenly become calm, I know, I missed such a good man, LinZiJun to me as a dream, let me know oneself is foolish. However, when I understand, but I don't have soft, also don't have love.
The meal to eat for a long time, I wolfed down appearance lets soft heart. That night I lay in his arms and to sleep in the past, I have no dream LinZiJun, I dreamed of flowers, sunshine, and soft smiling face.
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Soft put him in the bank to buy a house money all take out and borrowed from colleagues to a lot of money, he said not to try, I take you to the hospital, I will cure you.
I looked at his eyes firmly, heartache to an extraordinary degree.Christian Louboutin Boots
When we finally from the doctor and disclosed that if care aftercare, have a regular routine diet, regular went to the hospital to visit of words, I can also lead healthy life, soft put my whole lifted up in hospital, the full of disinfectant flavour corridor on loudly call my name. He put me down, said little blue, we get married!
Wedding party a very simple, but, my heart is permeated with full of happiness, I really wanted to do a plaque thank hospital, if not the doctor's treatment, I just leave it will let me lifelong regret. I can't even know, true love not necessarily all capacious big house and expensive diamond ring. Without a genuine, again big house also caged complete love, then expensive diamond ring also won't make love become eternal.
After marriage, I still live in small and soft, and every day that we crossed the room to work, to make extravagant saving money to buy a house, also pay down to make extravagant drinking potatoes turnip soup. But this soup is my own, I learned to stay in the bustling market shoving, also learn and bulldozing the bargaining, I think, I want to do a lifetime of rice, soft boil lifetime soup. This, is belong to my happiness. Christian Louboutin Sandals
I am before the silly, always thought love colors are gray, the colour of happiness is white, I and soft life is gray, not rich color, drab like a lime wall. Now, I just know, only the monotony of lime wall to draw the most gorgeous vivid most pure eternal color.
Love, let a person learn to grow and learn tolerance, also learned to cherish.
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